challenges, grief, healing
Nana Freda used a light bulb when darning socks.
She'd stick it inside so the hole was on the curve.
Then she'd thread matching yarn into a fat needle,
you know that needle; it's the one that pricked you
so many times in the last year. First, drawing blood
when your best friend died, second when Bob, whom
you treated like a dad, passed, and the worst when that
needle went right through your heart over and over
leaving you torn and ragged and daughterless. But,
needles can fix things, too. Nana Freda would weave
the yarn over and under itself. Over and under. Over
the memories, under the anger, over the grief, under
the regrets, until that hole was filled from side to side.
I tried darning, once. It wasn't easy. I made a big mess.
It certainly is a challenge. I mean, how do you incorporate
all those mornings of sitting on the porch, smoke swirling
around your heads, conversation as warming as coffee,
those stories of WWII and endless repeated questions,
and Trish's wonderful smiles, common sense, and help
into a strand of yarn? How can you even hold that needle
with your trembling hand? There is only one way: pick
it up, stick it in the edge of the hole and let the healing
begin. Grief begins with a needle and it is only that same
needle that can help darn everything back together.